Should be thankful

Assalam and good morning from Malaysia.

Hye everyone. I miss to write and I miss my readers too~ (^_^)

I was thinking to go home because I wanna send my brother to Polytechnic Port Dickson. He will start his first diploma there. The same place I used to study. What a coincidence.

But, I couldn't make it because I have a lot of assignment and I have to submit by next week. I feel so stress right now. I wanna join my family but you know~~...I have to make priority. Never mind, next time I can still go to PD.

I wish him Good Luck. He got killer course. Anyway, I believe in him. I hope he can do well in studies.

I have a thought of quiting my courses and worst, I was thinking to quit study. I don't know... Maybe I'm so stress here. I did not have a passion although this is what i want since the first. This is my teenage dream. I pray to God to have what I want, and I got that. God reply my pray. My Dua'. But I was not expecting what I want to be like this.

This is so hard. Ya, maybe I got what i wish for but not 100 percent what I want. But maybe God knows the best for me. I am planning, but He is the best 
planner after all.

I felt like our life is full of examination. A lot of pressure, a lot of challenge. Everyday have a battle and we have to face it no matter what. 

I think the solution of my problem is to love what I have right now. And most importantly, be grateful to Allah as He gave me what I wish for, since I was small. I don't know the future. But I have to make the present the best I can. 

The problem is, we always want more and more, but we forget to be grateful for what we have. 

I should be thankful because there is someone out there want to be in my course but they couldn't and not elected. But they are better than me and their passion is greater than me. Oh God forgive me ("_":) 

Anyways, as time passes by, I know I can do it.
I always pray to God that He can give the best for me.
What I can do is make effort. And then leave it to Him.

I can Do It.
We Can DO IT. 

Just make an effort and pray for the best.

Belajar Bahasa Jepun

Assalam.

Rasanya dah lama aku tak menulis kat blog ni. Kalau tanya aku, memang aku jawab aku busy lah. Huhu, kehidupan sebagai pelajar ni busy memanjang.

Minggu lepas, cuti pertengahan semester. Memang aku bercuti habis lah. Buku bawak balik rumah, tapi cuma sentuh dan tengok sikit jer. Tak lah beria sangat nak mengulangkaji tuhh..

Lagipun, bila balik rumah ni, busy lain pulak. Waktu tu la nak mengemas rumah, waktu tu lah mak kau suruh masak, waktu tu la mak kau ajak pergi jalan-jalan (pegi supermarket je pon)...hehehe...alasan untuk tak memikirkan pasal pelajaran...

Sebenarnya aku tak expect pun belajar bahasa macam nie. Macam aku belum betul-betul immersed in this language. Lecturer ada suruh tengok drama Jepun, tapi seriously aku rasa tak ada masa langsung nak tengok drama. Aku cuma ada masa layan lagu-lagu Jepun jer kat Youtube. Drama apa pun aku tak sempat nak tengok.

Kalau nak kata banyak sangat subjek yang aku ambil sem ni, takde la banyak mana pun..5 jer.. tapi entah lah. Maybe semua subject baru bagi aku.. Aku paling krik krik subject linguistik. Sebabnya, aku budak Sains Tulen dulu. So, aku memang tak belajar Sastera. 

Memang tak paham la..Sampai aku pernah rasa, asal kena amik subject linguistics. Kan bagus kalau belajar Bahasa Jepun jer..Tapi aku usaha la jugak baca nota and fahamkan.. Maybe sebab ada usaha, aku boleh dapat A untuk subjek ni masa ujian pertama hari tu..Aku kalau benda-benda yang menghafal ni, kalau aku tak faham, tapi aku baca betul-betul untuk exam, inshaa Allah dapat.

okay enough pasal linguistics. Masalahnya tajuk pasal bahasa jepun tapi mengeluh pasal linguistik kekeke....

Ok. Memang tak dinafikan. Belajar Bahasa Jepun susah. At first, aku nak belajar Bahasa Korea. Tapi kat sini tak de untuk Bachelor. Hanya ada untuk kursus elektif jer. So aku try la mohon untuk kos bahasa Jepun. Dapat. Sebab ni Bahasa jugak, pastu lebih kurang Korea, so aku pun ok jela enrolled in this program. Bahasa Jepun pilihan pertama aku, bahasa Sepanyol pilihan kedua. 

Nak tau tak, masa 2 minggu pertama, aku macam nak give-up tau. Hampir-hampir nak tukar course. Tapi bila memikirkan yang nak tukar course ni melibatkan urusan-urusan yang rumit (kena buat surat la apa la) so, aku pun stay jela. Padahal dalam masa 2 minggu tu otak asyik pikir tak mampu buat. Asyik fikir kalau tukar course, nak tukar course apa..

Aku terpikir nak amik French or Spanish. Sebab macam senang sikit. Guna alphabet A,B,C jer. Kalau Japanese kan ada tiga huruf. Hiragana, Katakana and Kanji. Kanji paling aku tak boleh. Banyak stroke. Katakana sampai sekarang aku kena refer buku nota sebab jarang guna. Aku jarang buat latihan. Huhuhu....tak tau nak cakap apa..Katakana kan huruf untuk foreign language contohnya aisukurimu = ice cream (English) 
chokoreto = Chocolate (English)

Entah lah, aku ingat masa cuti sem nanti aku nak hadam kan la buku-buku teks sem 1 ni. Harap aku boleh buat yang terbaik. Bak kata Sensei aku. Kita kena jadi professional. Apa itu professional? To know our field in detail.

Aku harap sem 2 nanti aku dah boleh cakap Bahasa Jepun dengan baik (berbanding sem 1). AT LEAST!

Muzukashii.. (^"_"*:)

The problem is, aku cakap aku tak de masa nak tengok drama Jepun, tapi ada masa tengok drama Korea. (maafkan makcik nakkk)...
Baru semalam aku tengok cerita Pinocchio yang Park Shin Hye berlakon tu.
Nampak tak prioriti nya di mana? Hahahaha.... 

Aku aku kena bermuhasabah ni. Bahasa apa yang aku tengah belajar sekarang. Kalau boleh setiap masa aku kena praktis guna bahasa Jepun. 

Nanako-chan, gambatte kudasai!!! (Cakap kat diri sendiri)

Aku kena paksa diri aku,
to do the best!

Sebenarnya, aku belum nampak cita-cita aku yang sebenar. Ufft, maybe nampak samar samar..

Apa pun, aku akan berusaha. 

Setakat ni, aku baru tengok anime kaichou wa maid sama. Tu pun baru sampai episod 7. Kena sambung tengok ah pasni.. No more K-drama.

okay, babai.. Jumpa lagi..
(daripada makcik yang bajet busy)