Hello and assalamualikum. I have not write here since more than a month I think. I feel like I will be honest with my feeling through this blog only.
On July 2017, my dad was attacked with stroke. Half body. That is one of my reason why I feel like quitting my study. Another reason is, my academic result was so dissapointed. Last semester, I joined college activity, it took a lot of my free time. So I almost did not have time to do revision. But, I still managed to do assignments. But you know, assignments and revision is two different things.
When I got my academic result for last semester, I feel like "WHATTTT?"
I got under 3.00 GPA which I never been through that. I laughed because I thought that was crazy. The most crazy thing that happened to me. I literally feel sad after 2 weeks after received my academic result from my university. My mom said, "Hey, you still can laugh in this situation?''
If only my mom know, I feel like zombie (mayat hidup) and did not have the ability to solve the problem. So I laughed. But deep inside me, I felt so sad. And actually I can not believed it happened to me.
Well actually, I knew that maybe my result will not be as high as before, but I did not expected to Failed. Yes, I failed one of my major course subject! Just one and it ruined my LIFE. For other subject, I got mostly A and B..
Can you imagine my feelings??
Because I failed the subject (one), I have to repeat that paper and that means I have to extend my study. Can you imagine, my course take 3.5 years to be accomplished but I have to extend sooooooo....T_T
Just so you know, I am not that young anymore.
I have a diploma in different field from my current study, so I have disadvantage too which is I did not have many experience in my previous study. In fact, I have to start from level one or start from the bottom if I want to use my diploma to apply for job.
Life is tough right now. I apply for jobs because I already plan to quit my study. I did not have many choices. My financial too is not stable. Life is sooo hard that I have to make this decision.
I actually have many reasons to quit than stay.
I have to think deeply and have to consider from many aspects. I actually want to help my mother. I want to earn money for her. If I do part time job, I do not think I can handle that. I can not do two things at the same time.
I already send official letter to quit from my university. I feel sad,when I walk to the department office, I feel like crying. If I have choice, I want to start a new. But, I have to. I can not do anything. No one there to help me. My friends ask me to stay. But I feel like Lifeless when I go to class.
Maybe if I left, I left for good. I do not want to waste my time, energy, and money to do things that I did not have passion anymore.
If only I can turn back time.....
There is one thing I will do.
(The things that will make I pass all my subject)
TO ATTEND THE PRESENTATION.
That 'one' day that ruined my life.
So, my advise to all students...
This is not the advise because I am good,...
But because I do not want you to repeat my mistakes.
-Do all the task that given by your lectureres. (assignment)
-Don't be lazy too attend class or presentation (please don't)
-Respect your lecturer (if you do not like them, it is hard to have their blessing)
That's all from me.
T_T
On July 2017, my dad was attacked with stroke. Half body. That is one of my reason why I feel like quitting my study. Another reason is, my academic result was so dissapointed. Last semester, I joined college activity, it took a lot of my free time. So I almost did not have time to do revision. But, I still managed to do assignments. But you know, assignments and revision is two different things.
When I got my academic result for last semester, I feel like "WHATTTT?"
I got under 3.00 GPA which I never been through that. I laughed because I thought that was crazy. The most crazy thing that happened to me. I literally feel sad after 2 weeks after received my academic result from my university. My mom said, "Hey, you still can laugh in this situation?''
If only my mom know, I feel like zombie (mayat hidup) and did not have the ability to solve the problem. So I laughed. But deep inside me, I felt so sad. And actually I can not believed it happened to me.
Well actually, I knew that maybe my result will not be as high as before, but I did not expected to Failed. Yes, I failed one of my major course subject! Just one and it ruined my LIFE. For other subject, I got mostly A and B..
Can you imagine my feelings??
Because I failed the subject (one), I have to repeat that paper and that means I have to extend my study. Can you imagine, my course take 3.5 years to be accomplished but I have to extend sooooooo....T_T
Just so you know, I am not that young anymore.
I have a diploma in different field from my current study, so I have disadvantage too which is I did not have many experience in my previous study. In fact, I have to start from level one or start from the bottom if I want to use my diploma to apply for job.
Life is tough right now. I apply for jobs because I already plan to quit my study. I did not have many choices. My financial too is not stable. Life is sooo hard that I have to make this decision.
I actually have many reasons to quit than stay.
I have to think deeply and have to consider from many aspects. I actually want to help my mother. I want to earn money for her. If I do part time job, I do not think I can handle that. I can not do two things at the same time.
I already send official letter to quit from my university. I feel sad,when I walk to the department office, I feel like crying. If I have choice, I want to start a new. But, I have to. I can not do anything. No one there to help me. My friends ask me to stay. But I feel like Lifeless when I go to class.
Maybe if I left, I left for good. I do not want to waste my time, energy, and money to do things that I did not have passion anymore.
If only I can turn back time.....
There is one thing I will do.
(The things that will make I pass all my subject)
TO ATTEND THE PRESENTATION.
That 'one' day that ruined my life.
So, my advise to all students...
This is not the advise because I am good,...
But because I do not want you to repeat my mistakes.
-Do all the task that given by your lectureres. (assignment)
-Don't be lazy too attend class or presentation (please don't)
-Respect your lecturer (if you do not like them, it is hard to have their blessing)
That's all from me.
T_T
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